Frightening experience, and growing from it

So I know I have yet to catch up on all of my posts with pictures, but I thought I should share our experience from yesterday. Zack woke up two nights ago with the stomach flu. Fever, aches, stomach pain, headache and such. All the normal things that go with the flu right. I wasn't too worried. I gave him tylenol or motrin for the fever and headache, and just watched him throughout the day. He didn't see to be getting better like he usually does, which I thought was weird, but figured he just needed some sleep. I hadn't been able to get him to sleep more than a few minutes here and there. Well that night Chris went to young mens, and I was home with the kids. I was just thinking about getting baths started and bedtime routine going when Zack came out of the bedroom. He was thirsty and wanted a drink of water. So he got one. He started dancing around like he needed to go potty. So when I asked him if he needed to go he said he did. He turned around like he was going to put his cup on the table and then just screamed and dropped. He hit his head and was just laying there. At first I thought maybe he was just going to cry. I ran over to him and tried to help him up, but his arms and legs were clenched. He couldn't stand, and then he started convulsing. I was freaked to say the least. I had no idea what to do. I knew he was having a seizure, but for the life of me I couldn't remember exactly what not to do and what I should do. I called 911. I have never in my life had to call 911 for anything as important as this. I was trying to stay calm so I didn't completely freak Dani and Triston out who were watching everything.  It didn't work though. The lady on the line was trying hard to get me to calm down and talk to her, but I was trying to make sure my beautiful little 3 year old was still breathing and alive, because after he stopped shaking he sure looked dead. It was horrible. Triston was so brave and helpful. You would have never known he was only 5 last night. I don't know what I would have done without him. He unlocked the door for the perimedics. Once they sat down to help him, Danika flipped out because they were between her and me. :) Poor Triston was helpful again and called his daddy for me. I think he must have accidentally hung up because the one perimedic had to call him back. There were so many questions they asked me I could hardly talk. That was when Triston broke down. They finally asked me to move away from Zack to take care of the other two. I was so afraid to leave him laying there. He was so pale, and lifeless. Our handsome energetic Zack who can hardly sit still. Chris arrived a few minutes later. I can't even imagine what that would have been like to walk into. The men put him right to work though for which I was thankful. He had his daddy there. So there I am trying to calm my two kids down and here comes the cop to ask a bunch of questions that I had already answered. I was so annoyed. I know he was just doing his job, but I was a little busy.  Thank heavens for neighbors. Steph Burt came right in the front door to help. She took Dani and Triston (who was very grateful to leave the all the excitement) Danika wasn't so excited. Poor thing was pretty mad. Camille went and picked them up a bit later. They took Zack out to the ambulance (he still doesn't believe me that the ambulance parked out front of our house and picked him up) and then I got to ride with him. He did really good. He was so tired that he kept falling asleep. Every time the ambulance bounced he would wake back up and freak out. Of course they had to poke him a few times and get vitals and such. Chris actually beat us to the hospital so he was there waiting. I am just so glad that he was here when this all happened. He leaves for China tomorrow. Anyways Zack started to come back around. They took blood to do tests, they did and ultrasound, and a cat-scan. I stayed in the room with him to keep him calm. He told me that the machine looked like a washer. He thought it should be pink because likes pink. :) I kept telling him that it was taking pictures of his head and then his belly. He did really well. I would just tell him to breath and he would calmly take deep breaths like at the Dr.s office. He was so brave. His temperature came back down and all the tests came back normal. It is more common for kids that are 3.5 to 5 to get these types of seizures with high temperatures, so I really need to watch him from now on. I still find myself going back and thinking what I should have done better to help him during the day.  I just didn't pay enough attention. What really kills me is that throughout the day I kept thinking "I should give him a warm bath, I should give him some more medicine, and on and on" but I didn't. I think that from now on I will be more patient with what they are trying so hard to tell me when they are sick. Nothing matters more than my kids. I let Zack down yesterday, and it will not happen again. It was a BIG wake up call for me and I will try so much harder to be the better mom they deserve. I love my kids with everything in me. They are so precious and sweet even when they are being stinkers :) They are a gift to us from God and that is something that I need to remember constantly. I am here to take care of them. Well hopefully you didn't get too put out reading this long thing. Zack is doing so well today. He has had no fever and he is back to his normal crazy self. Sassiness and all :) He misses the other kids. He doesn't remember much of anything except some of the hospital. He loves the socks that they gave him to wear. Funny thing is that when the paramedics got here they stripped him down to his underwear to get his temp down and then he soiled his underwear so he didn't have any clothes to take home. We were wondering the whole time what we were going to take him home in. Thank goodness the hospital let us take the gown and the blanket.  We were trying to entertain him so he wasn't so bored when he wasn't sleeping so he wouldn't freak out about the stuff taped and poked in his skin so Chris turned on a Thomas the train video on his phone. Here is a pic I took with my phone.

Sorry to all those who have pictures waiting. With all this going on they got put on the back burner. I will get to it tomorrow or so.